My anxiety was taking the better of me when I was walking home last midnight from the screening of Taare Zameen Pe (TZP). The movie hall is about a mile from my home and instead of driving and indulging in finding-a-parking-spot affair I decided to talk a walk.

It did help me clear my thoughts. Not completely because I am still undecided, still ambiguous. Uncertainty is a killer and it rips right through your heart. You live but you are not breathing. You think but you cannot decide. Should I let go or should I not? If I delve on the former my heart shrinks. I have gone too far. If I try to turn and trace my steps back I cannot because the tears blur my vision. I have devoted myself and it hurts to know the feeling not being reciprocated. Not even close. I contemplate what drives me there. I find no answer. I see the light at the end of the tunnel but it is that of an oncoming train.
And then I think whether I should not let go. Fight my way through the adversaries. But somewhere in the back of my mind I know I am fighting a lost battle. I will only be delaying the inevitable. The more I delay the more pain I will inflict upon myself.
I close my eyes every night thinking about the choice I have to make and I wake up every morning perplexed.

And while I started with TZP let me end with TZP. I believe it is a film well made. I seemed a stretch during times but the message was delivered loud and clear. Worth every penny.